Compromise in love part-2
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vahi se karta hu jaha se baaki tha. Jab meri
aur tamanna ki ladai hui thi tab hi hamara rista tut jata par mere mama ki request
ki vajah se mera rista nahi tut paya. Par
kab tak me is riste ko khichta jiski dori pahelese hi tut chuki ho??
Rista
fir se conform hone ke baad meri tammana se baat bahut kam hoti. Pahele ki tarah
jyada time tak bhi baat nahi karta, aur common couple ki tarah I love you bhi nahi bolta, bas vo baat
karti aur me sunta baad me phone rakh deta. Dosto in sab ka reasen ye tha ki
uski di hui gaali me bhul nahi pa raha tha.is liye hi muje 3-4 din tak bahut hi
rona aata. Vaha se aane ke baad mera
man hi nahi lagta tha. Last me mene papa
se kaha ke “papa, ab muje tamnna se koi rista nahi rakhna, me uska misbehavior bhula
nahi pa raha hu, aaj usne a sa kiya he to ho sakta he aage bhi muje dhoka de.” Mujse
papa ne kaha ki 3 years tak ham wait karege agar us doran firse usne kuch galat
kiya to ham rista tod dege. Mere man me bahut se saval the use lekar. Isliye mene
use apne ghar bulaya. Vo aayi to sahi
par apni marzi se nahi aai thi. Me usse achchese rahene ki jab bhi kosis karta
vo mujse thik se baat hi nahi karti. Jab uske liye laya hua gift me use pahena
raha tha tab bhi vo uncomfortable feel kar rahi thi. Use kahi ghumane le jata
to har dam mujse baat karne ke bajaye sirf ghar janeki hi baat karti. Is baat
par muje gussa bahut hi aata par use kuch bhi nahi bol pata. Usi dino me uske
kahene ke mutabik me use film dekhne ke liye le gaya. Vaha par bhi uska pura
dhyan sirf movie me laga raha. Film khatam hone ke baad jab mene use kaha aur
ghumne jaane ko kaha to usne mana kar diya aur ghar jaaneka bolne lagi. Iska matlab
to yahi tha ke use mujme interest hi nahi tha nahi thodasa bhi pyar tha. Mene bhi
bahut zid ki aur use park me le gaya. Vaha par kuch baat hui to vaha mere bhai,
bhabhi, mami,papa ki burai karne lagi. Mene sab kuch ignore kiya. Kuch din
rahene ke baad vo apne ghar chali gai. Vaha jaane ke baad vo muje roz khane
ke vakt call karti aur har roz mujse baat karti. Me bhi usse karib hona chahta
tha aur galat femi mitana chahta tha. Kuch dino baad uske ghar par thodi si
anban ho gai jiski vajah se usne muje call kiya aur rote rote mujse kaha ke “Muje
please yaha se lejao tumhare ghar, me sirf tumhare sath rahena chahti hu.” Ye sun
kar muje bahut achcha laga. Par shadi se pahele use istarah lene jana achchi
baat nahi thi. Isliye mene use samjaya aur job hi galat femi vaha hui thi use
slow kar ke apne ghar aa gaya.
Aage
ke dino me ramzan aa rahe the. Ab mere kahene par tamanna namaz aur quran
sharif bhi padti. Pahele roze ke din use gandhinagar jana hua. Me nahi chahta
tha ki vo gandhinagar jaye, fir bhi Kuch bhi mene usse nahi kaha. Par mene
usse kaha tha ki namaz, quran padna aur roze bhi rakhna. Aur jab bhi meri
zarurat ho to muje bulana me aajauga. Par vaha jaane ke 3 din me hi madam ji ke
tevar change ho gaye. Missed call karne ka bhi use time nahi milta. Namaz aur
quran sharif padne ka bhi time nahi tha aur roza bhi rakhna bhul gai. Me use
call na karu to vo bhi muje call nahi karti thi. Uska missed call ab firse
formality ban raha tha. Aur jab bhi meri baat hoti to vo uski bahen aur jijaji
ki burai hi karne lagti. Me bhi usse kuch except kar raha hu vo use batana
padta. Pyar, izzat, feeling ki hamesha muje bhik magni padti. Par koi bhi farak
use nahi padta tha. Vo 15th
days me halol aane vali thi par 20th days ho chuke the. Muje baar
baar vaha bulati par nahi ja pata. Ek baar mene customer care me apna call busy
rakhaya hua tha us doran call nahi lagne par usne mere dusre number par try
kiya. Tab mene call par kaha ki 2 min baad call karta hu aur 15 min. ke baad
call kiya. Call karne par tamnna ki sister ne kaha ke uski tabiyat thik nahi
iliye so rahi he. Mene baat karne ke kosis ki par nahi ho pai. Next day subah
me jaldi utha to tution calss janeke liye par achanak hi me gandhinagar ke liye
nikal gaya vo bhi ghar par kahe bager. Vaha jakar dekha to tamnna ki tabiyat bilkul
thik thi. Vaha mene uske sath kuch baate ki aur sham ko apne ghar aa gaya.
Kuch
dino baad aaliya jo tamnna ki sister ki
ladki thi, uski birthday thi. Us din ki raat ko usne mujse bahut hi lambi baat
ki aur kaha ke usne aaj muje pura din bahut hi miss kiya. Unhi baato me usne
mujse ek ajib si baat kahi jo muje gavara nahi tha. Vo muje baar baar
gandhinagar bula rahi thi par exam ki vajah se me nahi ja pata tha. Mene socha ki first semester ki exm khatam
hote hi me use jakar surprise duga. Exam ke end me collage me dance party aur
garba party thi jise ignore karke me use milne ke liye gaya. Is baar mene apne
ghar to kaha tha. Use dekhte hi laga ke bas use dekhta hi rahu aur mere paas hi bitha kar
rakhu. Par use bahut kaam hone ki vajah se jyada time nahi de pa rahi the. Sham
ko ham dono ghumne ke liye gaye. Vaha ek craft mela tha jaha se mene chupke se
monu ke liye ek kitchen liya..jise push karne par vo pyar ke teen word bolta
tha….” I LOVE YOU”.
Tamnna ka diya hua Gift
Uske baad ham dinner ke liye gaye. Mene jab usse park me
jaaneko kaha to usne mana kar diya aur bolne lagi ke didi aur jiju ko achcha
nahi lagega isliye ghar hi chalte he. Jab ke a sa kuch nahi tha. Me use forse
karke lekar to gaya park me but park ke bahar hi bethe aur vaha hamne bahut sari baate
ki. Uska kahena tha ki engagement par mene use ring nahi pahenai isliye me uske
liye ring bhi lekar gaya tha aur usi time mene use pahenai aur kitchen bhi tab
hi diya. Kabhi kabhi vo thik se baat karti aur kabhi kabhi kuch interest hi
nahi hota. So last me use me ghar par le gaya. Soch kar to me aaya tha ki me
use bahut pyar karuga, duniya ki har vo kushi duga jo vo chahti he par uske
double mind ki vajah se me kuch nahi kar paya.Har bar jab bhi me karib jata to
didi ya jiju ka bahana karti.
Next day didi aur jiju aaliya ko lekar hospital jaane vale
the par kuch reasen ki vajah se jiju chale gaye aur hame lekar jaana pada. Dekha
jaye to ye muje man hi man jiju aur tamanna ka plan hi tha mujse dur rahene ka.
So hospital me hamari kuch baate hui usiki vajah se use galat laga, jo usne
muje bataya nahi. Har baat ko ignore karke vo chali jaati. Ghar jaane ke baad
pura din me kaam ke bahane sayad usne muje 1 ghanta hi diya tha. Isliye sham ko
me nikal gaya apne ghar ki aur. Puri train me dil me lag raha tha ki kahi koi
aur to pasand nahi aa gaya ise??? Firse muje dhoka to nahi degi na
tammanaa???? Ise soch me me apne ghar
par pahoch gaya. Har baar jab me usse milkar ghar aata tha tab ghar pahochne ke
pahele uske 10 sms aur 3-4 call aahi jate the. Par isbaar ek missed call bhi
nahi mila muje.
Next day bahut wait karke call nahi aane par mene tamanna
ko call kiya. Dil me to lag hi raha tha ke firse ab me dhoka khane vaala hu. Me yahase pyar ki bhik mang raha
tha aur bahut rona bhi aa raha tha fir bhi use mere aashuo ki koi kimat nahi
thi. Muje ignore kar rahi thi har baat par. Phone par usne muje kaha ki me
subah baat karugi. Bahut wait karne ke baad agle din mene raat ko use call kiya
tab call guddu ne uthaya aur kaha ki tamnna ki tabiyat thik nahi is liye so
gai he. Mene use jagane ko kaha aur pucha, “Subah nahi hui tumhari?” ye sunkar
usne bhi muje bol diya, “Phone karne ki faraz meri thodi na he tumhari he,
mene nahi kiya call to tum kar sakte the.” Mene uski tabiyat ke bare me pucha
aur kaha ke do din me me aa raha hu to usne muje aane se mana kar diya, aur
kaha ki,
“ Muje kiski bhi zarurat nahi he.” Isliye mene call kat
diya. 29th September, 2011 ko is natak se tang aakar mene sirf ek
messge hi use kiya jo last sms tha, “ Me vaha se aaya hu tab se tum firse
change ho gai ho, agar tum nahi chahti ho mujse baat karna to ab me nahi
message karuga nahi call”.
Ye proof he uski mulakat ke...
Agar use mujse pyar hota to vo turant hi call karti but
formality ke liye usne muje ek missed call kiya. Me is baat ko lekar bahut hi
paresan ho gaya tha. Isliye fm ke us time ke RJ DR. DIPESH jo “LOVE KA
KIDA” show me aate the aur personlly mere
friend the, unke paas kuch suggestion lene ke liye gaya. Unhone muje bataya ki
agar use koi interst nahi he to rista rakhne ka koi matlab nahi he, jabarjasti
kisi bhi baat ko khichne se aur badi hogi, to bahetar yahi he ki sab ghar vale milo
aur job ho vo clear karlo, agar rista nahi rakhna to tod do. Ab uske call ya
message hi nahi aate the nahi missed call. Aur in dino me ek reality show me mene ek story dekhi jisme jiju aur saali ka
afaer hota he. Use dekh kar to me jyada disturb ho gaya. Man me ye sak ho raha
tha ki sayad a sa hua to??? Har dam Me bas Tamanna ko miss hi karta. Dekha jaye
to me apni life me sabse jyada agar roya hu to sirf tamnna ki vajah se. Tamanna
ki kuch Baat kahete kahete me apni dadi
ke samne bhi ro pada tha vo bhi muje yaad he.
1 mounth ho chukka tha par tamnna ka message, missed call
ya koi call nahi tha. Mene bhi man me ab soch liya tha ki ab me use dur hi
rahene ki kosis karuga. 1 mouth me bahut hi shant raha. Aur mera khana-pina jo
band ho gaya tha vo bhi suru ho gaya. Life ko enjoy karne ki kosis karta aur
tamnna ko bhulne ki.
Ek mouth baad diwali vacation me pata chala ke tamnna
uski didi ke sath halol aayi hui he. Aur unhone than li he ke unhe ab rista
nahi rakhna. Uske resean me unhone bataya ki me tamnna par hardam Doubht karta hu,
kai baato ko lekar forse karta hu, aur gandi books deta hu, uske ghar valo ki burai karta raheta hu. Jab ye baat muje mili
usi din subah ke vakt meri mami ne kaha ke, “Tammana buri nahi he par uske koi
kaan bhar raha he isliye vo a sa karti
he.” Aur mami ne kaha ki next mouth use aur muje ajmer le jakar hamara Nikah
bhi kardege. Ab dekhiye dosto hamari
side se plan ho raha he rista jod ne ka aur vaha se rista tod ne ka. Un dino
me meri didi ke samne tamnna ki didi ne meri bahut saari burai ki aur last me
kaha ki, “dekhti ho tere bhai ko kon si
dudh ki dhuli hui milti he”. Ya sab baate jab meri mammi ko pata chali to unhe
bahut hi hurt hua, aur phone par hi meri mammi ne bata diya ki hame ab ye rista
nahi karna. Tamnna ki didi ne kaha to sahi ke vo 2-3 din me aayege par vo nahi
aaye. Aur mere riste ka the end ho gaya. Uske five days ke baad ied ka deen
tha. Tab meri mami ji tamnna ki baate karte karte ro pade the.jiske vajah se
muje bhi bahut hurt hua. Me apne man me halka pan mahesus to kar raha tha par
use bhula bhi nahi pa raha tha. Sayad muje 1 mouth laga tha is dard ko bhulane
me. Apna mind fresh rakhne ke liye me chhotaudepur apne cousin bhai sarib ke
paas chala jata. Jisse me apne man ko
shant rakh pata tha. Kuch dino baad firse tamnna ke ghar vaalo ne dobara rista jod ne
ko kaha par mene mana kar diya. Kyoki me apni life doughbt kare bager jina
chahta hu, aur bahut hi enjoy karna chahta hu.
So in the last me apne carrier me busy ho gaya aur tamnna
ki shadi kisi advocate se ho gai. Vo khus he ya nahi vo to muje nahi pata par
me apni life se bahut hi khus hu.
